i’m being very edgy

I'm being very edgy and stupid lately. It's because I only write when I'm drunk. Because I can only feel anything when I drink nowadays, and I have to feel something to write. Part of me wants to die, but part of me wants to explore how much further into the depths I can reach.

love is not a human right

People these days are so quick to call things a human right. I think I'm spending too much time on twitter maybe, but it seems like people are proclaiming anything good to be a human right. You don't deserve love just by default. You don't deserve happiness by default. You deserve exactly what you have.…

bucket list

I want to have sex with a woman who's pregnant but not with my baby I want to kill someone out of revenge I want to physically harm a politician I want to emotionally harm a politician I want to be directly involved in a journalist losing his/her job I want to be loved I…

a bottle of bourbon

what i like about being drunk is that i'm simultaneously extremely suicidal, but i also have this amazing spirit for life and hope for my future. i've had a whole bottle of bourbon and two beers tonight, i'm feeling like the first sentence. if someone in the future finds this post go fuck yourself, but…

i’m going insane

I always used to think I write best when I'm drunk, but in retrospect whenever I read something I've written while inebriated it's always terrible. To be fair that could be for the same reason I think everything I write is terrible, but it feels like a different kind of terrible. Full disclosue I'm drunk…

i’m a god damn trainwreck

I'm sitting here, having a particularly crap day. I've had 2 beers and almost a whole bottle of Bulleit Bourbon. I'm pretty breezy, and I just caught myself feeling sorry for myself. That wording sucks but whatever, fuck you. But the second I started feeling sorry for myself I immediately started laughing. Because I've done…

try

Plunge into the unknown or remain in what’s comfortable? Challenge my life, dare to fail? Stay, continue with what works, what makes me content. My work, my life, makes me feel nothing, I get no pleasure from my life. I get a small spark of interest from my hobbies but my life bores me to…